Part II: As it is now

so, how's the eye-seeing exercise?
what's your reaction or what's your partner's reaction?

I did observe the reaction of some of my friends or even myself. (^.^)

1. Some keep on laughing (because his/her partner is of same gender...LOL..)
2. Some try hard to complete the task and they managed to complete it.
3. Some try not to laugh but having a hard time to complete the task.
4. Some just look normal.

So what's yours?
(Below is only my opinion)

1. You laugh because you feel it is not appropriate to look into the eyes of someone from same gender especially strangers.

2. You need to complete the task no matter how uncomfortable you feel.

3. You feel it is not appropriate to look into eyes of opposite gender but you wanna complete the task.

4. You don't feel anything, it is normal to look into the eyes of opposite or same gender. ....

 etc....

So, no matter what's your reaction, there is no right or wrong....

I just want you to know that...  if you realize it, that is actually an idea/thought/opinion that you trained yourself  since young that,

1. It is not appropriate to look into the eyes of someone from same gender especially strangers.

2. No matter how tough is the given task, you need to complete it. 

3. It is rude to look into eyes of opposite gender. 

4. It is normal to look into the eyes of opposite or same gender. ....

 etc....

When you realize this is just your own idea/thought/opinion, then tell yourself to overcome/break the barrier. You are one way to mindfulness. 

It is just the same..

either when you feel sad, angry, etc..

if you realize the reason why u are feeling sad, angry, etc... 

then you will be less sad, angry, etc.........

hmm, i'm not sure how many of you will understand what I'm writing...

But the message to bring back is to help you to be less affected by own moods, and be more mindful about your own mood/surrounding....

When you are more mindful, you will be more concentrate/focus in your daily activities...

Live in present, friends Y(^.^)Y

11.52 am

21 July 2010

Part I: As it is now

In the recent ehipassiko camp, there is a dhamma talk entitled "As it is now", which I think this is the best talk I ever attended.....

First, let me ask you....

1. Do you get angry/easily fed up when somebody said something that you dislike to hear?

2. Do you get angry/easily fed up when someone do something that you don't like?

3. Do you get angry/easily fed up when you found out that your friends go out with another friends without telling you? 

4. Do you get angry/easily fed up when your friends don't reply your sms or email?

5. Do you get angry/easily fed up when your mom doesn't listen to your idea?

6. Do you get angry/easily fed up when your friends break their promise or cancel the appointment at the very last minute? 

7. Do you get angry/easily fed up when your boyfriend doesn't call you?

8. Do you get angry/easily fed up when your friends/father/someone make fun of you in front lots people/relatives/girlfriends/boyfriends?

and the lists go on....

Okay, next do you realize that you are angry/easily fed up and start to scold/complain about the things of any mentioned above??

and next question: Why are we angry/easily fed up about the things? It is actually very minor part in our life and we can get angry/easily fed up for sometimes before we cool down.....

In our own life, we have our own ideas/dreams/thoughts which to your own selves, you think it is the right things that everyone should follow..... this is the ideas that make you think that 

1. My friends should talk to you politely.

2. It is wrong for my friends to do this things.

3. My best friends should inform you where she goes/does/etc or your best friends should only go out with you and not others.

4. My friends should reply your sms/email in less than a day.

5. My mom should at least to listen to your idea before saying anything.

6. Everyone should keep their promise and nobody should cancel their appointment last minute.

7. My bf should call me everyday.

8. Nobody should make fun of me in front of public.

So, we called this ideas/dreams/thoughts that you have developed since young as a barrier.

A barrier that make you feel angry/easily fed up.

So when you realize this barrier, tell yourself, I shouldn't get angry/easily fed up. This is just my own opinion and not others, why should we angry/easily fed up about it? 

Let me give you another example:

Find a friend or stranger of opposite gender.

Look into their eyes for 1 minute.

How do you feel??

Do you feel weird? 

Are you feeling like continue/stop looking into their eyes?

Are you feeling it is not appropriate to look into eyes of strangers/opposite gender??

So...... What is your answer??

(Part II: to be continued)

1.15 am 20 June 2010 

(After watching inception and while chatting with yong wei)

U say I listen; I say U listen

I always wonder why people always say first love is very hard to forget...


1. Because it is the first time you fall in love and do all the special things with the first one?
2. Because you do everything for the one ?......
3. Because......


I couldn't think of any now.. maybe if u have different analysis, can drop a comment...


But I have a different opinion on this idea.
It is not the first love you feel it is hard to forget,
It is the unsolved puzzle you have for the first love....


When there is something happened..
Something which is unexplainable
and it happened between two people,
In either friendship, relationship.
You don't plan to reveal what is in your mind,
You don't plan to reveal how you feel,
You don't plan to tell what is happening,
You plan to hide everything,
Which you think it is the right choice to do,
Which you think it is right decision,
Which you think it is your right to do so,
Which you think it is the best for the one.


But before you think all these,
Have you ever
know what's in the one's mind?
know what's the feeling in the one?
know what's the one had gone through?


Most important,
Have you ever think from the one side?
Does the one prefer what you have decide for him/her?
Does the one will feel grateful for what you do?


Think twice,
The most important ingredient
either in a friendship or relationship
is TRUST.


Imagine,
When someone you like/respect/close to,
Hurt you in one way,
Either it is due to third party;
e.g. gossips which may not be true, but you believe is what the third party say,
e.g. parents give you a big sum of money for you to leave their children (most are in series ^.^)
e.g. anything that can happen....
Either it is due to individual,
e.g. you feel that both of you are not meant together,
e.g. you feel that the one is not suitable for you,
e.g. you know you are only flirting around,
e.g. you feel that the one fall for somebody else.


Because you believe in third party,
Because you believe in what you see, feel and listen,
Because you never approach/never ask,
Because you always have your own opinion/reasoning,
Because of ego,
You made the one suffer.


When misunderstanding occurs,
and it never resolves,
You will always put them in mind,
Because it is human nature,
When you don't know why it is happening,
You will always want to find out the answer.


An answer to the unsolved puzzle in your life.


And thus, it becomes something which is very hard to forget
till the puzzle is solved.

If there is a doubt, make it clear. Don't assume. Don't just believe the first instinct. 

9.38pm 19 June 2010

yeah~ !
it has been sometime I didn't update my blog!
and yeah, now i'm in IMU library..
went for Melaka roadtrip last few days.... it was nice.. but as usual, my mood will turn moody towards the end of the trip..
aarh! i don't like this feeling....

~ emo cheese ~

2.48pm 30 May 2010
p/s: time to go back vista to get ready to back to ipoh ^.^

Day 3

Nothing much, the pharmacist in-charge was kinda busy, so I learnt less things everyday.
Today, help her count dangerous drugs' stock and visited the ward. Had a look on how the nurse prepared the medication to serve the medication to the patients.

And attended a talk by a company selling B-Cobal and get free lunch "MacD"
* wink * wink *

Other than that, it was such a boring day....and started to feel the conflict in working place.

>.<

9pm 12 May 2010

Day 2

haha.. to those reading, u guys must be very disappointed with my first day and find my elective quite boring. :) yeah, indeed it is.. especially there are all basic things that a pharmacist will encounter during their PRP. Maybe it is an early exposure for me :) I still find it quite interesting despite the boredom.. hope i get to know more new things and getting more new experience.

hmm, today, I learnt how to fill in dangerous drug that is supplied to ward into poison book. There are lots terms for stock ( issue return, issue stock and etc...) which I haven't really can digest in just ONE day.

And I attended their meeting to discuss about opening a pharmacy satellite in the hospital. Yeah, fyi, both in and out patients are combined in this pharmacy. It looks very different from the general hospital and now there are slowly making changes to it. I might have a chance to contribute some ideas, however, currently, my brain doesn't want to think so much, maybe still in holiday mood.

nah.. it is just the second day.. there are still (6 x 4 = 24) minus 2 = 22 days to go...

I love my lunchtime because it is my leg-resting time =D
I feel like dozing off after dinner and wake up next morning..
I reluctant to wake up 7 am in the morning today >.<
Tomorrow, I'm going to have my breakfast alone T.T

9.12pm May 11 2010

Day 1

Day 1

Time to rise: 7 am
Time to leave after breakfast: 8.00am
Time reach: 8.15am
To describe the day: Great + Tiring legs + Bored-ness
Experience:
1. New things learnt about the organisation and management of pharmacy in hospital setting.
2. Roles and tasks of pharmacists in hospital setting.
3. Fill medication for in-patients and pack for discharged medication. (same like in sem 4 hospital attachment)

Hoping to learn more new things tomorrow.

Happy Birthday, Ming-Yi

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Bunny~~!

sudden love for bunny.. they are so cute.. 

I still remembered, when I was little kid, I got tonnes of bunny soft toys....

so cuteeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

1236am 8 April 10

(photos grabbed from google image)

R-A-I-N-B-O-W

Rainbow colours my life, may they color yours too

1207 am 6 April 2010

TWO + THREE

Thanks everyone for planning and celebrating my birthday.. either it is pre, actual or post celebration...!! I had so much fun and enjoyed it so much!!

Thanks peeps!!

miss cooking with my sister

12.00 am 6 April 2010

Pray hard

Pray hard
everything will be smooth.....
Pray hard
I'm on the right path of doing things...
Pray hard
Everything will be done by next week
Pray hard
I can start doing my reading ......

1256pm 2 April 10

Stay away from me....

Yesterday, I was all the time on bed, yet still feel sleepy today..

Should I go to university to do my work instead???

I need to finish PCP today!!! >.<

1045am, 2 April 2010

I'm tired

I'm not tired of walking, not tired of reading, not tired of thinking, not tired of studying, not tired of standing, not tired of being lectured, not tired of arguing, not tired of playing, not tired of screaming, not tired of eating, not tired of everything..

But I just feel tired thinking of it.....

Time to let go..

12.31am 30 March

Bee

Starting of busy week again..

With these, I hope to leave the unnecessary things behind. Where am I heading to next week?
arH... a place of.................

GOOD NIGHT~~

had been sleepy whole sunday......

It's time to wake up.... \(^.^)/

11.53pm 28March 2010

It's the time

It's time to back to reality.

A reality is never something sad to talk about. It's like playing in a wonderland awhile and then when the time is here, time to say bye and make yourself ready for the reality.
I learned something from the movie Alice in Wonderland, just believe in yourself and do what ever u think u should. Do not let anyone influence your thinking or feeling. Somehow, you walk the path on your own. So, choose the best path.

Entering 23, meaning I should be more mature and responsible. I'm growing more mature since at very young age. All these while, I had my own principle and never try against it. I do what is right and say no to what is wrong. Eventually, "me" as in who I am now become the bored person people may describe me. I love to talk, I can talk non-stop, but when in a group, when I said something, my voice hardly can heard by many. and then only I realize, that I'm indeed a shy person and never really be the active one in a group.
Could it be I'm in a different group? Could it be I'm not comfortable with someone? Could it be this is ME??
I just want to listen. haha..

I always think that, I don't talk a lot cause we are not close enough and we don't have common topic to talk about. Yeah, my languages and vocabulary are definitely another barrier for me. and I lack of confidence..

Am always thinking of how to improve myself. Somebody told me to open up. Hmm, maybe it is time for me, not to so bother about what others say about me and not so bother about what people see you when you  behave not so properly in public. Play when you need to play, serious when you need to be serious.

I had a great bunch of friends, they tried their best to plan and gave me surprises for my birthday! though it is not a success one, they still did a lot of little little small things that make the whole thing a nice, memorable one.

I learned a lot of things through he extensive training that I undergo recently...

It is time to back to reality. From today onwards, I will find myself in my new world, full of little and bit of happiness, they will eventually become a mountain of happiness..

I have great friends, thanks myvi, cc, xh and my dearest sie chai...

Now I wanna ask do-ra-e-mon for a magic door.

Open it and I'm back in POH-i

remember those cute little memories. how my cousin and little brother love ding dong so much..

catch the series every weekend

and even now, my brother still watching it.. =D

hahahaha...

and somebody just love domokun.. so I search some images on domokun..
cute?

rawr rawr rawr

how I love Tom & Jerry especially Jerry.. it is so cute!! 

and how I love Mashimaro so much

and my friends even bought it for me!

Mashimaro "JIN TU" is so cute... I'm just loving them...

 Winnie the Pooh also quite cute..

finally happy birthday to myself!! 

Big Big Girl already

* haven't buy my IMU Ball dress >.<
* continue doing my CPK

3.42 pm 25 March 2010

I told you already. 

When you know so much about me, you will feel fed up eventually and slowly leave me. 

Next time, no more story telling to anyone. I don't want to lose anyone in my life. 

23March10 5.42pm

(-_-)

This year will never be the same.................



/(*_*)\

What say u?

Days with smile

Latest update:

Glad that there is some change to that special week. Gonna plan that week with something nice and memorable.     
   Anyone free that day? hehe...

However, next week gonna be a packed week.. till I can't planned my schedule well.

And desperately need some oxygen tank. 

CP1 and TOXI pbl next Tuesday, CC's logbook and Sem 7 proposal presentation on Thursday, Toxi project and powerpoint slide submission on  Friday

I haven't even touch on the last three deadlines.....

Let's see how I die survive this week!

1.13pm March 14 2010

p/s: Happy White Day.......Have you received your chocolate?