decision made!

yes, today i made two BIG decision in my life!!!

and i like this!!!

"Remember, happiness doesn't depend on who you are or what you have; it depends solely on what you think."

countdown!!!

8 more days to go..
and I will have hospital attachment..

hurray!!!
faster finish the portfolio and study study study...

ahem....excited excited...

everyone is sooooooo




bleh!!!

7.35pm 16 March 09

IT has left me...(Edited)

my TV has committed suicide this morning around 8.45am - 9am...and declared dead after falling down from the height of 40 cm
when i heard of the news, what came up my mind is..

i will not have any entertainment during dinner time....arghh...

is okay then..i still have internet and radio...

later in the afternoon,
was chatting with my mom about it..and
feel like crying suddenly after my mom told me that my TV has dead...have to accept the truth..

this sentence make me think that, "it is like somebody so close to me and it has always be there for me whenever i need it, either when i'm sad, happy or bored. The sudden loss of it would definitely make my life a bit miserable... "
the tears just flowed from my eyes..

it has been in my life since I born...me and my brother used to bang on it, to make the image to be more clearer (it had been very sick when it was in IPOH)..but since i brought it to VISTA, it shows no sign of sickness...

clear, nice image...

how I like it..

but..this morning, it left me forever..

how i wish i can turn back the time...I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH

and YOU will be always in my mind..

thanks for everything you giv me...

*cry*

28 February 2009 3.35pm

good bye

bYE..

i think i have think clearly of what i want in my life..
rather than wasting time to hope for that only dream to come true, i decided to go for my another dreamsss..

ya, no doubt i hav many dreams...
let go one of them won't harm me at all..

seeing someone close to me hav to suffer like this make me realize that there is nothing is permanent and forever..
what u say today is not forever...
the feeling u hav today forever never real..
how sad is the attitude of human beings now...

how i wish to say that how much i hate u,
how i wish to tell you that how irritating you are..

but, all these will just remain with the dying dream...

why dying dream and not dead dream?

simple : i just started to kill it..haven't killed it yet...

haha...okay...

hAPpy PBL-ing, PF-ing, REPORT-ing and finallllyyyyyy.....


ENJOY-ing...



1.34am 30 January 09

i want to ask her this question

i wanted to ask her this question for some time, some time in last year as well....

but, i never dare to ask her..
i thought i am brave of asking anyone anything and when i feel so...
but in this case, i never thought that.. i just unable to ask her...

but, i really want to know the answer..
if i never ask her this question, i never know the answer?!!!

so how and what should i do?

1.20 am 12 January 09

week 2 of semester 4

thought of writing something here yesterday, finally i didn't as i need to prepare for my dispensing practical today..and i wanted to sleep early ( though i didn't manage to do so..)...haha...

remember how hard to open my eyes this morning, and i need to wake up bit early to practice for the last time.

ok, everything seems fine.. and i'm glAD i make it through.. though i did dispense wrongly...

haha...

yesterday class is quite a fun one..
i remembered Mr F said something about the adhesive and cohesive type..
haha..and i just smiled when i heard that..wondering which type i am..

yaya, sometimes, i like to be around with friends, and sometimes i don't...
so .. i'm a mixture ?

HAha....LOL..

today is friday..
meaning the 2nd WEek in semester 4 has passed...and i hvn started any portfolio yet, i think i will be in serious trouble if i don't start immediately!!!

LOL...is okay..relax while u can...HAHA....
nothing much happen this week, oh ya, the jelly yvonne treat us is superb..

and i really love it..thanks there...

so wish that following week will be a nice one...

happy weekend!!!

enouGH is enOUgh

..
as the title goes, stop everything that u think is not necessary,
do something that will beneficial to everyone..

just be myself???
no no..
as what grandpa said..

explain is better..

so here goes again..

enough is enough!!!!

11.30 pm 6 jan 09

rumour ends, feeling stays

the title has nothing to do with the following sentences...

haha...

today, fifth outing...with IMU friends..
so i went there a bit early 11am, others came before 12pm..
to buy xmas gift for my friend..
nervous + paiseh + blur + etc...

mixed feeling when choosing the gift..

hoho...then, we bought ticket to watch "the day the earth stood still"..

the story is ok la..(not much action, some touching side..bUT not much..quite suspense..waiting for the story to end..)

LOL...we had lunch at JAE WON (KOREAN RESTAURANT)...
so u can expect me to say that " this is the expensive outing i hav among all"
yeap!!! wai han met his two friends ( forgot their name too )..LOL..so we ate together..almost late for show !!!

hehe...after that, we went to food court to have some drink...
and there's go my fifth outing...gonna have two more..

hehe...

10pm 17 Dec 08

sorry

it seems like everything is not in the order..
all the planned things love to suddenly appeared to gone wrong!!!
forcing people to do something they don't like...that is not good at all..
but..but...haha..i don't know..

sorry, dear friends!!!

15 Dec 08, 9.30 pm

failed!!!

my outing plan had failed...
sad d!!

yEar Of MEMories..

Year 2008 is coming to the end.
All wishes are almost accomplished.
With some still uncertain,
Unclear, and unexplained.
Yet, life goes on.
Let’s welcome year 2009.

have a nice, memorable year of 2008 with so much activities besides the life of BPHARM..

After leaving form sixth world and entering IMU, my life totally changed in some expect..of course, not my study style..actually what i hope most to change is my study type..if i can change, maybe my result will improve..

i studied in all-girls school ever since I'm in primary school and it is malay school...so, somehow, my mandarin is not that good.. and most of my language also not up to standard, can see from the way i type my English, the way I don't use Cantonese and Mandarin that well...

HAHA...there are few memorable activities I joined in 2008 such as NoGAPS which I used lots time and efforts to persuade my parents to let me go..and I never regret for joining it..
nice experience ...

historical GrouP F...hehe...like them so much!!!

firSt tiMe coLOur batiK...


AnoTHEr unforgetable moments are nothing but all those biRThday celebration i jOined..
I remembered my friend told me that "why everytime i ONline also, u say u are going to celebrate friends' birthday d..???"

haha...i agreed what he said...indeed he seldom online, anD WHEn he online, i will have to rush for friends' birthday!! and unable to chat with him...


and after such a long time, and this year is the 1st time i played tang lung again!!! (i don't play even at house after i entered form 4..hehe...)
nice nice early mooncake celebration...

and of course, i'm glad to be sub-oo in B108 orientation...never imagine myself being an sub-oo and joined back those games...
it is nice to know them and hope they will still remember me as their friend....!!!

moody

today super super no mood + sien!!!

even chatting with one of my fav's friend also i don't know why the mood can't recover back to normal...

aiyo...am i too bored till no mood???

help help help!!!

sister back KL...cousin back Johor!!
KL trip maybe canceled...
don't feel like going sing k (cause don't sing)
suddenly feel like drawing..
feel like shopping..

8 December 08 11pm

Regret

so..
just wanna let u know...
all these while, i have three things that i regret very much!!!
now early this sem, one + one added into the list...
yes!!!all together is 5 regret things...

this two...is created by my own idea...
and i got regret over it!!!!

sweat!!!looking back at those picture making me felt so so so.....
IRRITATING!!!

11.25 pm 27 Nov 08

Fall In Love

ever wonder how people just fall in love?
ever wonder how they just can't let it go when it does not belong to them...

i watched few drama recently and just finished watch that episode where a girl just suddenly admire this guy or i can say fall in love...

it is just like flash of light...out of sudden, it pops out...
just some action or some kind of words...

that reach the girl's heart...
it is so simple, isn't it?

and i always wonder how guys will fall in love then?
same thing or they have different perspective??
hmm, anyway....

there is some quotation i wanted to share with u guys...
it is from this japanese drama "PROPOSAL DAISAKUSEN"

"If you keep on thinking that tomorrow’s always gonna come, then you’ll always be in pain."
"If you put things for tomorrow, you’re stupid!!"
"Don’t think that there will still be a time when you can do that"

"Every time you think that She’s just near you, trying to procrastinate is useless.
SHE was always by my side, her being so close was natural, I thought that I could always, confess to her at anytime, though she’s always been by my side like this, I couldn’t do anything. "
"Though she’s always been by my side like this, I didn’t know anything. That she would be in a place where my hand couldn’t reach her. Was something I never thought about. I don’t want Rei to have the same memory. In remember that memory, it’s enough that I alone do. "


hmm, guess there will be more quotation as i watched...hehe...still in episode 6....

lol....ok la...today i sleep late tim....

see ya!!!
1.01am 26 Nov 08

When i want to talk to my blog.......

Each moment, your presence made me smile...Knowing you are somewhere here...Made me feel warm and comfortable..

i was out of words today...
feeling of ___________.....
thanks is word that i want to say

~~~~~@~@~~~~~~~~~~@~~@~~~~~~~~~~
kan dao ni bu kai xin,
rang wo hen xiang zai ni shen bian,
ting ni....hao xiang na tian, ni jiang ta de gu shi gei wo ting...
jiang zhen de, wo man xiang nian na tian...
ni gen wo jiang zui duo hua...
dan wo dong, ni ye zai bu hui...
sui ran, wo yi zhi dou xi wang zhi...
ni huo xu suan zhi gen ta jiang,
hua xu shou zhi xin ni....

zhi dao ni bu kai xin,
kan dao ni xiao zhi chu lai...
bu dong...
dan wo xiang gen ni jiang,
fang xin ba...
ni neng de...
wo dui ni you xin xing...

7.40pm 13 october 08

aM i Weak Or?

I'm not weak, am i?
i'm not dependent, am i?
i'm just craving for care and attention, am i?

why la, i become so weak and not independent??
I'm actually very independent...just u feel i'm not...
u see i'm weak...cause if i show that i'm strong..

what will i get? nothing....weak....nothing also what....
haiz...

is not easy to become perfect human being ba....
i don't want that perfect...

but don't want be that imperfect ba...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

may be i mind what he said ba....
if not, i won't care so much....

.....11. 20 pm 4/10/08

how i wish

how i wish i could just forget,
how i wish i never have that feeling,
how i wish everything will be fine soon...

back then,
i thought i was on my way to the destination,
but somehow i was stuck somewhere in the middle,
looking back and wondering...
is there a hope?
or i am dreaming again...

quoted from janning's blog

don't let someone become a priority in your life,
when you're just an option in theirs.
relationship works best when they are balanced.

we make them cry, those who cares for us.
we cry for those who never cared for us.
and we care for those who will never cry for us.
these are the truth of life. it's strange and sad but true.

how i wish it will never be the same....