a balanced moment

Yeah

I finally say whatever I want to say..
Do whatever I feel like doing...
Shy as I feel to..
Talk as I want to....
Type as I love to.....
Decide as I prefer....

~.. A moment where I truly enjoy...~


before I really got stressed up with my presentation

good night!!

1.01am 15 October 2010

1. Will be attached to Hospital Ipoh for semester 8 hospital posting (yes, expected!!!thus, some gathering had been arranged...)

2. Gonna miss some of my friends....yeah.. especially ..You...the one reading!! LOL

3. Had been surrounded by so-called old@mature friends recently... and making me feel more young...(yes, younger!! okay la.. just that they kept on repeating... "young"...)

and hate it when they said... " yOu are still young....".. " I see more things than you and experience more... "...
hmm, yeah, have to agree that they are more experienced.... but but... sharing is caring.. so share with me...LOL........

OYasumi~  1.10am

hello ..anyone out there?

I used to blog everyday and now I’m getting lazy and lazier to blog. There are plenty of activities up everyday, yet I feel lazy to blog it. I used to write everything in details in my diary and now it had been a history. I used to be very strong in friends’ eyes and now I’m looking fragile and weaker. I used to have stage fright but I’m able to perform during Malaysian studies. I used to have mic-phobia, and now I’m getting use to it. I had been adapted to the disappointment I used to get from friends.
I become more independent.
I used to imagine myself in the future when I was in earliest semester, it doesn’t look anything different to me except I’m getting older and cling with many groups of friends. Other words, I’m still all alone without any fix group. Sometimes, it really sounds sad but I have adapted to it.
Never imagine myself dancing in the crowd, perform on the stage, drinking with friends, watching 7 hours concert in the midst of busy week and leaving the norm.
9.47pm 22 sept 09

countdown!!!

8 more days to go..
and I will have hospital attachment..

hurray!!!
faster finish the portfolio and study study study...

ahem....excited excited...

everyone is sooooooo




bleh!!!

7.35pm 16 March 09

1, 2, 3....here they come!!

hahahaha...
saw my friend doing this...12 more days to go..
and feel like doing it here as well...hahahah

10 more days to go...hahaahhahahahaha

lol...

ate too much things today..
felt so sleepy now..

doink..must wake up...do report!!!

11.08 pm 14 March 09

p/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KRYSTAL :)

wow...cool website (",)

wow...here is the analysis from a test i did from online..
here is the website..


most the analysis are so true..even myself can't believe it..

the analysis result
Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. (this is quite true) You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (true)


The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? (i'm not sure..hahaha..)

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you: (DEFINITELY not true!!!)

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working. (true)
What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. (OMG...so real)It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

MORE TO GO...

1. You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you. (true)
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend. (true)
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. (TRUE)
People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right? (ArghhHhH...don't think so)
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking. (let see)

MORE TO GO...
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well. (wow, how i wish this one is true)

guess it is time for me to stop..clicking on more to go on that website..and start studying biotechnology again..!!!hhahahahahah...

7 MARCH 2009, 10.17 pm

what about ME?

1. Name : ai xin, yan yan, oeshin, nicole, shin_Lee(secretive name)

2. I have one younger brother and one eldest sister..i care for everyone in my family and i can't afford to lose anyone of them...i LOVE THEM SO MUCH

3. I don't like to tell lie but if i do, is for my own good or for your own good.

4. I love cooking, or maybe I should say I love learning to cook...hmm, can be anything (cake, sushi, soup..everything) ...I want to cook for the one I care and love (",)...including all my family members...

5. I care for my friends and I hope they care for me too..(usually is hard, cause they seldom care for me...that's why I always look emo???hAHA...

6. I think lots before I commit myself into something.. I will consider these and that before really make decision.. so, sometimes, i really fed up of myself..and wondering one day where I just do whatever I want, ignoring others' feeling, and others' opinion...or whatever they talk bad about me...(tai yao mian)haha..

7. I love receiving present...HAHA..guess most of us also..hehe....but I won't simply receive present without a reason..SWEAT..

8. I love meeting new friends...getting to know them..is like quite fun, where you can actually know a lot of people...from all kinds of walk...(but since i joined IMU, my life is only .... hardly have time to meet new people)

9. I love to buy clothes that have unique design rather than a simple pattern of T-shirt..which makes me actually kinda hard to buy clothes..and I have to shop for few days before I can bump into that type of unique design...sometimes, kinda choosy...hehe...but I can shop quite fast...know why???cause most shops just sell simple pattern of T-shirt....

10. I hate my face...ops, did I?...cause when I don't smile...most ppl think i'm not happy, stress, bla bla bla..which is all negative signs...even I AM TOTALLY ALRIGHT THAT TIME...(no stress, normal feeling...)so I have to smile lots...

11. I love music, sports when i feel to...hehe..

12. I love chocolate (",)

13. I don't like waiting for people and waited by people...(ops..in certain condition)

14. I can't live without internet...!!!!msn, blog, facebook, friendster, PET SOCIETY...haha..

15. I always procrastinate...i don't like this..NOW, I should be doing something else but i'm typing this...consequently I lack of sleep..!!!

16. I love to plan and organise but most time i just "hangat hangat tahi ayam"..so if hv feel, i will do my best..if feel gone, then..don't feel like continue it already.. (",)

17. I have one question in my mind that I wanted to ask this girl for some time...last year I think...but till now, I still haven't really ask her..(that's totally not like me..)..Maybe I scare her answer will hurt me...

18. Since small, I will fall sick when there is big occasion going on..like CNY, birthday, etc...hope this will become better in future ..

19. I don't hav specific favourite stuffs (color, food..etc) color as long as it looks nice and not irritating to my eye, that will be fine...i eat all kind of edible stuffs but not too spicy or bitter...i prefer Ipoh rojak with lots nuts, traditional egg tart and mango! hehe..

20. I have hospital attachment on my B day...what a day!!!!

21. No one is perfect, bUt everyone to me has their uniqueness...

22. I have some problem with my communication skills... :S to me, actions speaks louder than words.

23. I go to Genting almost every year..and since I was 3 years old??? !!!

24. Love to go for school trip, batch trip, uni trip..hahaa...as long as, is with friends...hehe...

25. the amount in my bro's account is more than my account !!!!!!! ( meaning i spent a lot...or he gets lots?????)


10.27 am 3 March 09